Journey

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe

When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you...

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wond'ring what's my purpose
Wond'ring how to make me strong

I know I will falter I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you...

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on cavalry
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you...
ohh... to you...

Angela Zhang - Journey

C.A.L.L.I.N.G

Somewhere between who I am and who I used to be
Somewhere between who I was and who You're making me
Somewhere in the middle, You'll find me

Somewhere between my heart and my hands
Somewhere between my faith and my plans
Somewhere between the safety of the boat and the crashing waves

With eyes wide open to the differences, the  God we want and the God who is
But will we trade our dream for His ? or are we caught in the middle ?

this is lyric from Casting Crowns - Somewhere in the middle

lately, this song describes the condition of my heart.
i feel somewhere in the middle

i am sure that every one of us have experienced was like at the crossroad.
what we should choose ?
sometimes we think that the condition is not always good for us, right? haha

but how about if  we should choose between our dream or God's calling ?

it's not always easy to choose that. i think we need to kill 'our ego' to follow our calling.
someone told me, to follow our calling we must DIE YOUNG.
die young for our dreams, die young for this world.
Woowww..i suprised for what he has told to me.

Calling is not become a pastor or fulltimer in Church. It's not about careers and jobs.
Calling is a matter about the mission from God to us.
Everyone of us has created different and unique.
and it has to be a package with our calling, but this all depends on us to find it or not.
 
if we find it, we will face step 2. it called dilemma
yappp, same as this picture (above)

anyway, i has read a book. that book tell this,
the myth: 
Calling = dreams
Calling = our passion

the fact:
Calling > dreams
Calling > our passion

you can read this book. "CALLING: more than just dreams"
i think that book can give us knowledge about calling.

perhaps, next time we can discuss about it in details.
last, i want to share the bible verses to you.

And Peter answered Him and said, "Lord, if it is You, command me to come to You on the water." - Matthew 14:28 NKJV